Though admist the many joys in my life, i'll admit that i am quite sad right now. I wonder and wonder all the time why i am the way i am. I dont need an explanation, i like to just wonder sometimes in hopes that the big guy upstairs will be pleased with me. But i wonder why i am and feel set apart. i wonder, though admist a lot of worldly desires and people, why i am the way i am. I wonder why i stand firm with my morals. Why i am so adamant about my word. And the reason is this...without my word, than i would be just like everyone else. So why am i sad? I'm sad because that's who i am, or rather, that's who i'm not. I'm not like many people, they know that...but what they don't know...is how lonely that can be sometimes. A lone soldier. Sometimes you look and look forever for a soldier to fight along with. But, expectations get the best of you and you discover that not everyone's fighting the same fight you are. I'm not angry nor am i depressed. I just feel distant and out of the loop sometimes. I guess that's how temptations get to you, no one wants to feel out of the loop. But, i guess its right then and there where you're character is tested. As for me, though I believe it may be the right road to lead me on...the road i choose is usually the loneliest of them all. I'm still not sure what that says about my character. All i know is i'm different...and scared......but it's worth it through it all

Such is life....